Mistrusted KeyA key inner twined in his boney fingersLike snakes coiled around their prey, about to killThat mistrusted key is to my heartTo my soulThey key is broken and chippedJust like the true beholderI can sense my soul rupturingI can feel my heart tearingI can see the key being broke even moreHis ruby red eyes stare at meBoring into my skinThey're taunting meLaughing at meSeeing right through meI feel nakedThat monster is the man I used to loveI can't see the man I loved anymoreOnly a monsterHe tore me downTo a point where I couldn't get upWhere I was gasping for breathGrasping at lifeMistrustDespairHumilityHurtThey're holding me downChaining me upAll what I feelAll what he did
80. Words--We Both ArguedWe both argued, we both spoke words we shouldn't of. They were like daggers to the heart, tearing holes in my heart, in our trustWhy didn't I stop? I could of stopped but I didn'tThe argument was getting too far, too hurtful. More daggers were being thrown, so I ran as far and as long as I could.I was terrified of the truthThe truth hurts I have heard, now I know that is true.Why didn't I stop running? I could of fixed this, but I kept running
running away from the arguing, from the truthNow regret is tearing at me. Is it tearing at you too?
Can You See The True Me?Can you see the true me?Do you notice the pain inside of me, that has pushed out the happiness?That I'm really crying behind that angel like smile. Do you notice the deep scars and gashes under the skin?From all the times crying and feeling dissapointed inCan you see the true me?Do you notice the warm light that has vanished from eyes?Replaced by a darkness so deep, and coldDo you notice that I'm not relaxed anymore?I'm so tense and jumpy, and you didn't noticeCan anyone see the true me?Can anyone see through my disguise?Or well I always remain a mysterious actor on the stage called life?Can you see I am tired of hiding?Tired of hiding how I feel
.Can you see the true me?If you do see the true me can you save me?Save me from the sadness
I'm losing hope
.can't you see?I'm about to give into the sorrow
Can you see the true me?If you can see behind the many disguises please save meCan'
Even ThoughSmile, even though life gives you a million reasons to cryLove, even though you have no reason to give them anyForgive, even though they have no right to be forgivenLaugh, even though you have nothing to laugh aboutRelax, even though you are completely stressedEnjoy, even though you have nothing worth enjoyingLive, even though you think you have nothing to live forHope, even though life makes it hardEven though life has thrown many curve balls at you, live on, laugh on, love on, smile on, enjoy on, and enjoy life to the fullestEven though life is kicking you down hard and trying to make sure you don't get up, get right back up and live on
3. Light-The LightA bright light is in front of a little girlThe light is pretty, and warmShe is cold and scaredThe little girl looks back at the creak where her body lie at the bottomWhere she had drownedShould I go into this wonderful light?Should I leave?Is it my time? Or am I leaving too early?The little girl steps toward the light, she remembers the coldness and pain from the creakThe girl looks back at her body one more time and steps into the lightNo one knows what happen to this girl, where she went, or whatHer parents cried because she hadn't come back in a long timeHer parents were worried for such a long time, but it's been so long they worry no moreThe little girl smiles above, at her parents not worrying any more.